The Final Countdown...

List 15 things that you want to say to people but never will. Don't say who they are. Never discuss it again.

1) I'm starting to worry I was wrong about you. I have this flawless image of you in my head and I don't want to believe that you are punching holes in it with every in-circles conversation we have. I want to keep you perfect.

2) You are starting to grate on my nerves and i can't place exactly why. I am not as predictable as you would like to think - nothing personal.

3) I miss you. I never thought you would completely put me in your past - I had every reason to think you'd be there in some aspect. That was selfish off me. I admit it...now please come home.

4) I practically idol-worship you. Well, not literally, but I just wish I could be like you. You would think I was crazy for saying that - but I would take your flaws over my best qualities any day of the week.

5) I wish you would trust me. Some has to help you at some point, and I promise you I would never let you down. There are few things you could do that I wouldn't forgive you for. I will always be there to catch you if you fall, even if you refuse to acknowledge it or me. I don't care, because I do.

6) If you asked me today, I would marry you tomorrow.

7) You treat me too well. I don't deserve it or you. People do not appreciate you nearly enough - if they had any idea how much you cared about them, they would be floored. I wish they could see that - I wish you would let them.

8) I think you are beautiful. It makes me jealous, but in a good way. I'm glad you are happy. You have no idea.

9) I'm scared about what I will do without you. I don't think you realize that every smile in your direction is sincere. Your apology was unnecessary and made me think even more highly of you. I miss you and you haven't gone anywhere.

10) You're not so bad. We even have some stuff in common - who knew? That doesn't mean you can hug me though - please don't try yet.

11) 'What ifs' weigh heavy on the minds of friends. You are in a good place and I hope you stay there.

12) Thank you for dealing with me. I'm a pain in the ass and what's worse is I know it. I hope I can change this and start to make it up to you. Your patience is awe-inspiring. I hope I can learn from it.

13) That person you're stuck on doesn't deserve you. I wish you would expand your horizons. Let someone love you. I'm sorry I don't always listen when you talk.

14) People can see right through you. Stop being so fake and throwing what you have in everyone's faces. They've caught on finally - have you?

15) You have the most beautiful smile I have ever seen - it's as confident as you are. I'm lucky to still have you. You know me as well as anyone - and if I forget that, you are quick to remind me. Keep cutting me down to size and reminding me that I don't know as much as I think I do.

Goodbye, 2006

(I'm scared of you, 2007)