'So kiss me hard - cuz this will be the last time that I let you...'

It's a sad song kind of day.

I have a special playlist for just such an occassion. I also have a sweet song playlist. I never listen to that one.

'You ask me "How?" - it's like "How does your heart beat?" or "Why do you breathe?"'

I'm not stressed. I haven't been particularly stressed all year. No anxious heart beats since late August. I'm unsettled though. I need a constant.

'I am no prince, I am no saint, and if that's what you believe you need you're wrong; you don't need much - you need someone to fall back on.'

It's funny how you can say things to other people that you would never be able to realize on your own. 'Sometimes "great" just isn't enough. Wouldn't it be great if that's all there was to it? There are plenty of awesome guys that I would never consider dating. And plenty of assholes I would. Him being a great guy doesn't mean anything if to you there's still something missing.' I've tried everything. Everything isn't always enough either.

'And it's no one's fault; there's no black and white - only you and me on this endless night. And as the hours run away with another life, oh darling, can't you see it's now or never.'

I'm getting impatient. On multiple planes.

'Oh say you'll miss me one last time - I'll be strong. But whatever you do, please don't get me rescued...because I'm feeling like I might need to be near you.'

I never had the whole 'I'm so alone in the world thing' down. I was more disappointed in that though - being one of the masses. A million people listen to these songs everyday and each relates to them. I don't feel alone. I just feel bad for people.

'Cuz we have spoken everything, everything short of 'I love you' - right where you are from right where I am - somewhere between unsure and a hundred.'

I'm getting impatient.